[WHY WOULD YOU TAKE HER HAND AND START FIRING-!? Mikasa stilled at the flickering flames, her pastel tail flicking. As her eyes watched the embers on instinct, her head dipping as she swallowed. Not meeting his gaze for a moment, her head only lifted to watch their hands entwine.]
Worthwhile..? [Her hand clenched, fingers tightening around his. What exactly did that entail? Mikasa had always thought just being together was worthwhile, during those peaceful moments. Slowly...Oh so slowly, she lifted her head to look at him. Her face still flushed, still gentle as she looked up at him.] You mean...just us...Away from this noise?
[A nice, quiet place. Where Mikasa didn't tense at the strange noises that made her wonder if danger was nearby. A place where they could step out the front door and it was still just them.]
[ anyway, i started blasting— (no he's just really emotional right now). and to that, he pats his hair and mane off quickly with a free hand, uttering a quiet: ]
Sorry— [ but lifting his head higher over her's out of sheer height, from this angle (from any angle really—) she was just . . . gorgeous. his heart kept skipping and he failed to continue on naturally, even his, hm, equine package starts to gradually hang and he's feeling a little, no, plenty self-conscious, why didn't he grab a skirt or something—?! his hind legs buckle and hide it, and hopefully, she's close enough that she doesn't notice. it's a shame that everyone else on the trip to emerald park might. ] Just— Just us.
[ it's because he's thinking about what they could do in all that silence. subtly, he picks up the pace. he doesn't want her to notice. please don't look. ]
[In Mikasa's eyes, Eren's diginity was maintained. While their sides weren't seamlessly close together, there was no way for her look between them and spot the dangling dong. Unless she had to lean her torso down and look underneath them, she wouldn't notice.
So he got a little smile, her eyes creasing as she looked up at him. Before shyness overwhelmed her and she averted her gaze.]
Are you sure... [She spluttered slightly, realising how those words could be taken. Her gait uneven for a moment as she absently sped up to match his pace. Her mind was too busy thinking about how to reword it.] I don't think I could do the water pipes and stuff... [Electrics. Little things that they didn't have back home. Things that they didn't really need, but would be nice. She quite liked the bath and shower with hot water on demand.]
[ please just don't look at his boner. augh— and as they walk he can . . . he can feel it just flop about, hit his belly every time he felt a spark in the way he would admire her glow from cheeks to horn. by now, they've made it to the start of emerald park, its vast green carpets in a wide open expanse meant for play, for long walks or just hanging around. they had to take one of the many designed paths to where he wanted to take her, but he starts toward it anyway.
maybe he should just start thinking about all of that plumbing instead of the hard on! that way, it'll go away, and the passing children can stop pointing and asking their gem parents why the horse man has his— ]
Leave it to me, for once. I'll figure it out. [ she doesn't have to lift a finger with all the details. he'll get it fixed. he'll call people who work with that stuff, and he'll pay for it. ] What else . . . Would you want? In our house.
[ eren makes a face as they walk, caused by another bump against his belly that makes his tail thrash and his hoof stomp, even kick back to get rid of the position even though he wouldn't escape so easily from it. ]
[Mikasa was happily oblivious to his predicament. The blushing? Well she was blushing too, flustered by his...She wasn't sure what. Proposal? That thought only made her flush more. The giggling and points of the children? Well, they were stumbling. Not as often as they had before but it was still probably a sight.
She frowned at his words, though the effect was lessened by her red cheeks and pout.] If we're doing this, we're doing it together... [They would both pay. It was theirs, a joint effort. Not just him. His question unanswered for now. Too busy thinking.
The unicorn kept walking, unintentionally moving ahead as Eren paused to thrash around. It only took her a second to realise and stop in her tracks. Her head turning to look at him, her own tail giving a little swish. A flurry of pastels covering smooth white fur. Blinking at him.]
What is it? A fly? [That was normally why horses kicked out when nothing seemed to be there, wasn't it?]
[ oh, no she couldn't go ahead, she couldn't, that run the risk of her seeing—! as soon as mikasa got a lead during eren's miffed kicking, his legs jolt in sudden surprise to catch up to her at all costs. please don't see— ]
Y-yeah, a fly. [ maybe she wouldn't realize he's lying if he was already red? his ears were taking on another shade, though, and he doesn't seem to be wanting to make eye contact. he did want to do something himself for once, but maybe it can be . . . chores? or something? she was right about the proposal being a together thing, so in his haste to change the topic and reach the fields: ] We'll figure it out, then. Together.
[She didn't complain. She'd had so many moments of slowing down since she'd changed like this. It was too hard to wall, little things like stepping from the kerb, took a lot of concentration. Mikasa just summed up his little lapse and speed up as him having one of those moments. That he'd been more focused on the fly than walking.
Nothing more.
But she nodded as he gave in, that smile turning to him.] Yeah... Together. [Gentler than her previous scolding. She slowed once they reached the grass, so she could adjust to the softer ground. But she regained her balance enough to turn to him again.]
Why did you want to come out here? Or is it in case you fall over.
[ it wasn’t lying if it was omitting— the first plan was still in process, eren just so happened to trot faster to it to avoid showing his equine boner to every single passerby in sight. his paces into the grass are lighter, even gentler as he minds the weight he throws onto the little blades the best he could. ]
Well, um, [ he gestures forward, still holding her hand and swinging it up halfway to their torso’s before it slid down. ] this is where we’re going to live, so . . .
[ the wind, the quietness compared to the city, and look at that . . . a vast horizon of green, peppered with the farmlands already present, far enough from each other to give each property plenty of privacy. ]
[Stealth boner was stealthy, for it'd still gone undetected. Mikasa's gaze had moved away from him in favour of looking at the rolling fields and woodland.
Though she didn't share his care for the grass. She just walked. Though if one looked close enough, they'd find the grass her hooves landed on was just a little greener than the rest.
Then he spoke and her smile slipped. Falling into a frown as she turned her narrow eyes to him.]
...Are you already looking at plots?
[The warning Eren wasn't needed. Her low tone was enough.]
[ his fluster shows in the frown he wears and the body heat he gives off. his ears, for what it’s worth, are free of any apparent flushing when currently floppy, furry and rimmed with brilliant scales (his tail cracks, though, like a whip).
at least he’s heavily distracted from his boner— it should go away in due time. ]
. . . But if you wanted, to look, [ he gestures, and wordlessly closes his sentence up without exactly finishing. ]
[That got her to pause. Her head slowly turning to stare at him in that judging look. Eren...
She just silently left him to stew in her gaze for a moment. What was the plan here? Just a walk where there'd be fewer people to look and laugh at the stumbling jinba? But she sighed. Her head dipping as she slumped.]
I don't want to go back to the shared house yet... [The apartment they'd been living in this past few months. Though that wasn't an answer. The slow step forward was-
Then she paused again, frowning at him.] Did you get something caught on your leg? [And was dragging it along? Yes. That was her thought. That he'd just managed to get tangled on a branch.]
[Mikasa froze when he started to sway, unsure if she should get nearer to help catch him. Unsure if she could manage it without falling over herself. Neither of them had fully adapted. But as she pondered, she noticed...
That the branch was oddly floppy. Her gaze drifting to it as it bobbed. Her eyes narrowed further.]
Huh? [She could see it, she'd seen one of those before. One didn't spend time dealing with horses as much as they had without occasionally seeing...nature. But Mikasa kept staring her gaze drifting to Eren as a whole. Not comprehending that Eren being half-horse meant the horse boner was his.
Oh.........then it hit her. Making her rear up in a small hop. Flinching back and just standing there, rooted to the spot as her face started to burn. Not looking at him at all. She was just going to look at a tree-Then jerking her head to look at some nice bushes as she remembered her branch comment. Yes.
[ no— no, it's happening. you know what was even worse? when she looked at it, at that moment, where eren realized that she had realized— it throbs. yes, it throbs. it moves and strains and nearly hits the underside of his belly, and one really would never begin to understand his embarrassment. how uncool was this? fucking this! ]
You didn't see anything! I didn't—
[ what, "i got turned on along the way and now it won't leave"? oh, dear. more purple than he was red, eren ends up dropping all four of his knees to the ground in a clattering flop— the only sure way of making sure it was out of sights, but no, it actually wasn't. he couldn't lay down like this. it was uncomfortable. finally, eren makes sure his qilin body is facing away from the unicorn after a few struggling shuffles, gathering some stray leaves and loose grass blades to just. cover up.
[The silence was deafening, Mikasa's lips pressing into a thin line as her head turned back to him at the sudden... movement of his.....yes, moving was hard to miss.
Then he just-plopped onto the ground, scrabbling and Mikasa took a small half-step closer. A hoof still held in midair as she tried to work out if she should get closer or just leave him to it. Frowning as he started to throw leaves and grass over his...his dick. Eren-]
What are you doing?
[well that peen wasn't going anywhere near her now...]
[ he's absolutely desperate and not thinking, not that it was embarrassing to have a boner in front of your girlfriend, it was just— embarrassing to to have it in a publicly open space and suddenly, too? there was no way else to hide it and grass, not even the stupid leaves are helping, as the shouldn't.
he lays his human torso on the ground and covers his head with his arms in defeated shame, muttering out: ]
Mikasa just remained still and silent for a moment. Watching this display. Her hands coming up slightly, falling again. Just...She's just going to take a deep breath. What? She really didn't know.
Then there's a sigh as she closed the distance. Awkwardly lowering herself until she too was led on the floor. Not as...dramatically. She was normal thx. She didn't try to touch him though. Thinking again.
[ thanks for making your boyfriend feel more like an alien with the plague!!! eren tenses when she sits close by, and no, he doesn’t lift himself yet. ]
I wanted to see the land with you. And ask you.
[ the proposition had come first in his mind, then the browsing. the boner was not planned, and with a quiet mumble that’s too embarrassed to rise, ]
[She did want to!! She wanted to pat him on the shoulder, maybe rub his back and haul him to his feet. But he'd rolled away and Mikasa didn't want to make things worse, so she just sat-led here. Awkwardly hovering. And it was oh so awkward.
Because...There really wasn't anything they could do about it, was there? They just had to wait it out. Mikasa tried to do that, her head dipping, looking at the ground as though it were the most interesting thing in the world.
Her ears twitching when they caught a whisper and that made her head snap right back up. Staring at him wide-eyed, giving him an owlish blink.]
Huh?
[Well done Eren, you've just gained her undivided attention. Did he just-?]
[ eren can feel the heat seeping over his face like a wildfire, and what was worst was that it was untamed. his lips pull down and he faces mikasa with— that look, the infamous frown a tsundere would hold as his heart skipped at that damn cute face looking all surprised and flushed because, yes! she’s beautiful! she’s beautiful right now. ]
You’re still . . . Beautiful.
[ the state is maintained. he means it. and he just frowns deeper as his boner doesn’t fucking let up, but, that’s just how things are. ]
['Cute', was her gormless, blank face that cute though? Because she lept just staring. Shoulders hunching as she started to wilt, hands wringing the front of her skirt. Her face so warm that steam was almost pouring out her ears. Her gaze falling to the ground.]
Oh... [Silence. Was he frowning? Mikasa didn't notice, she didn't register much at all. The brain had turned to mush.] But I'm like this.
[ one may confuse his tone for building anger, because truly, so???? she had horse legs, or maybe furry legs next month, or maybe plant legs to next. it doesn’t remove attraction for him in the slightest. and with a grand huff: ]
[Her ears dip in a small flinch. Her lips pursing. Eren... She wasn't too sure what to make of that. A part of her was glad, she'd have loved Eren no matter what but....
But popping a boner seemed a bit beyond unconditional love.
...Wasn't it? Mikasa wasn't so sure anymore. Slowly, she shuffled. The grass parting to make a soft indent for her to rest on.]
O-Okay... [But this knowledge brought nothing. Because he still had his...issue?] ...Now what? [Did she go back and just leave him here to deal with it or? She didn't like the idea of doing that, but there wasn't much else she could do.]
[ “now what” after “you’re god damn beautiful any way you are”, that is going to echo in his head for a really god damn long time today. there was the obvious route, and they were certainly beyond something unconditional to him, but if she’s clueless on that . . .
he inhales, deeply, and for a second feels a tinge of inefficacy the same way he did when he asked her “what am i to you” and she responded with “family”. ]
Go back. [ he shrugs, but keeps his gaze low, ] I can take care of myself.
[Look, it was a perfectly valid question when there was a boner she didn't know what to do with. It'd have been awkward enough if he was a human. But as a Jinba...she had no idea.
Even as he told her to go, she remained sitting.]
Are you sure? I don't like leaving you... [She dote and worry. Even if he wasn't ill. ]
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Worthwhile..? [Her hand clenched, fingers tightening around his. What exactly did that entail? Mikasa had always thought just being together was worthwhile, during those peaceful moments. Slowly...Oh so slowly, she lifted her head to look at him. Her face still flushed, still gentle as she looked up at him.] You mean...just us...Away from this noise?
[A nice, quiet place. Where Mikasa didn't tense at the strange noises that made her wonder if danger was nearby. A place where they could step out the front door and it was still just them.]
cw for horse dong, i am sorry
Sorry— [ but lifting his head higher over her's out of sheer height, from this angle (from any angle really—) she was just . . . gorgeous. his heart kept skipping and he failed to continue on naturally, even his, hm, equine package starts to gradually hang and he's feeling a little, no, plenty self-conscious, why didn't he grab a skirt or something—?! his hind legs buckle and hide it, and hopefully, she's close enough that she doesn't notice. it's a shame that everyone else on the trip to emerald park might. ] Just— Just us.
[ it's because he's thinking about what they could do in all that silence. subtly, he picks up the pace. he doesn't want her to notice. please don't look. ]
We can build a place from scratch.
YOu're not
So he got a little smile, her eyes creasing as she looked up at him. Before shyness overwhelmed her and she averted her gaze.]
Are you sure... [She spluttered slightly, realising how those words could be taken. Her gait uneven for a moment as she absently sped up to match his pace. Her mind was too busy thinking about how to reword it.] I don't think I could do the water pipes and stuff... [Electrics. Little things that they didn't have back home. Things that they didn't really need, but would be nice. She quite liked the bath and shower with hot water on demand.]
And there's money...
[Thinking of the more practical parts of this.]
i'm not
maybe he should just start thinking about all of that plumbing instead of the hard on! that way, it'll go away, and the passing children can stop pointing and asking their gem parents why the horse man has his— ]
Leave it to me, for once. I'll figure it out. [ she doesn't have to lift a finger with all the details. he'll get it fixed. he'll call people who work with that stuff, and he'll pay for it. ] What else . . . Would you want? In our house.
[ eren makes a face as they walk, caused by another bump against his belly that makes his tail thrash and his hoof stomp, even kick back to get rid of the position even though he wouldn't escape so easily from it. ]
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She frowned at his words, though the effect was lessened by her red cheeks and pout.] If we're doing this, we're doing it together... [They would both pay. It was theirs, a joint effort. Not just him. His question unanswered for now. Too busy thinking.
The unicorn kept walking, unintentionally moving ahead as Eren paused to thrash around. It only took her a second to realise and stop in her tracks. Her head turning to look at him, her own tail giving a little swish. A flurry of pastels covering smooth white fur. Blinking at him.]
What is it? A fly? [That was normally why horses kicked out when nothing seemed to be there, wasn't it?]
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Y-yeah, a fly. [ maybe she wouldn't realize he's lying if he was already red? his ears were taking on another shade, though, and he doesn't seem to be wanting to make eye contact. he did want to do something himself for once, but maybe it can be . . . chores? or something? she was right about the proposal being a together thing, so in his haste to change the topic and reach the fields: ] We'll figure it out, then. Together.
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Nothing more.
But she nodded as he gave in, that smile turning to him.] Yeah... Together. [Gentler than her previous scolding. She slowed once they reached the grass, so she could adjust to the softer ground. But she regained her balance enough to turn to him again.]
Why did you want to come out here? Or is it in case you fall over.
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Well, um, [ he gestures forward, still holding her hand and swinging it up halfway to their torso’s before it slid down. ] this is where we’re going to live, so . . .
[ the wind, the quietness compared to the city, and look at that . . . a vast horizon of green, peppered with the farmlands already present, far enough from each other to give each property plenty of privacy. ]
I wanted us to get a better look.
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Though she didn't share his care for the grass. She just walked. Though if one looked close enough, they'd find the grass her hooves landed on was just a little greener than the rest.
Then he spoke and her smile slipped. Falling into a frown as she turned her narrow eyes to him.]
...Are you already looking at plots?
[The warning Eren wasn't needed. Her low tone was enough.]
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[ his fluster shows in the frown he wears and the body heat he gives off. his ears, for what it’s worth, are free of any apparent flushing when currently floppy, furry and rimmed with brilliant scales (his tail cracks, though, like a whip).
at least he’s heavily distracted from his boner— it should go away in due time. ]
. . . But if you wanted, to look, [ he gestures, and wordlessly closes his sentence up without exactly finishing. ]
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She just silently left him to stew in her gaze for a moment. What was the plan here? Just a walk where there'd be fewer people to look and laugh at the stumbling jinba? But she sighed. Her head dipping as she slumped.]
I don't want to go back to the shared house yet... [The apartment they'd been living in this past few months. Though that wasn't an answer. The slow step forward was-
Then she paused again, frowning at him.] Did you get something caught on your leg? [And was dragging it along? Yes. That was her thought. That he'd just managed to get tangled on a branch.]
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No— Let's just go that way!
[ the more he tries to hide it, the more it looks less like a branch that was caught around his legs and sort of . . . hanging, and . . . ]
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That the branch was oddly floppy. Her gaze drifting to it as it bobbed. Her eyes narrowed further.]
Huh? [She could see it, she'd seen one of those before. One didn't spend time dealing with horses as much as they had without occasionally seeing...nature. But Mikasa kept staring her gaze drifting to Eren as a whole. Not comprehending that Eren being half-horse meant the horse boner was his.
Oh.........then it hit her. Making her rear up in a small hop. Flinching back and just standing there, rooted to the spot as her face started to burn. Not looking at him at all. She was just going to look at a tree-Then jerking her head to look at some nice bushes as she remembered her branch comment. Yes.
Silence. Silence was good, everything was fine.]
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You didn't see anything! I didn't—
[ what, "i got turned on along the way and now it won't leave"? oh, dear. more purple than he was red, eren ends up dropping all four of his knees to the ground in a clattering flop— the only sure way of making sure it was out of sights, but no, it actually wasn't. he couldn't lay down like this. it was uncomfortable. finally, eren makes sure his qilin body is facing away from the unicorn after a few struggling shuffles, gathering some stray leaves and loose grass blades to just. cover up.
kill him. ]
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Then he just-plopped onto the ground, scrabbling and Mikasa took a small half-step closer. A hoof still held in midair as she tried to work out if she should get closer or just leave him to it. Frowning as he started to throw leaves and grass over his...his dick. Eren-]
What are you doing?
[well that peen wasn't going anywhere near her now...]
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he lays his human torso on the ground and covers his head with his arms in defeated shame, muttering out: ]
Trying to disappear.
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Mikasa just remained still and silent for a moment. Watching this display. Her hands coming up slightly, falling again. Just...She's just going to take a deep breath. What? She really didn't know.
Then there's a sigh as she closed the distance. Awkwardly lowering herself until she too was led on the floor. Not as...dramatically. She was normal thx. She didn't try to touch him though. Thinking again.
...Then she frowned.]
Why did you want to come out here?
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I wanted to see the land with you. And ask you.
[ the proposition had come first in his mind, then the browsing. the boner was not planned, and with a quiet mumble that’s too embarrassed to rise, ]
You were beautiful the whole damn time.
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Because...There really wasn't anything they could do about it, was there? They just had to wait it out. Mikasa tried to do that, her head dipping, looking at the ground as though it were the most interesting thing in the world.
Her ears twitching when they caught a whisper and that made her head snap right back up. Staring at him wide-eyed, giving him an owlish blink.]
Huh?
[Well done Eren, you've just gained her undivided attention. Did he just-?]
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You’re still . . . Beautiful.
[ the state is maintained. he means it. and he just frowns deeper as his boner doesn’t fucking let up, but, that’s just how things are. ]
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Oh... [Silence. Was he frowning? Mikasa didn't notice, she didn't register much at all. The brain had turned to mush.] But I'm like this.
[???]
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[ one may confuse his tone for building anger, because truly, so???? she had horse legs, or maybe furry legs next month, or maybe plant legs to next. it doesn’t remove attraction for him in the slightest. and with a grand huff: ]
That doesn’t change anything.
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But popping a boner seemed a bit beyond unconditional love.
...Wasn't it? Mikasa wasn't so sure anymore. Slowly, she shuffled. The grass parting to make a soft indent for her to rest on.]
O-Okay... [But this knowledge brought nothing. Because he still had his...issue?] ...Now what? [Did she go back and just leave him here to deal with it or? She didn't like the idea of doing that, but there wasn't much else she could do.]
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he inhales, deeply, and for a second feels a tinge of inefficacy the same way he did when he asked her “what am i to you” and she responded with “family”. ]
Go back. [ he shrugs, but keeps his gaze low, ] I can take care of myself.
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Even as he told her to go, she remained sitting.]
Are you sure? I don't like leaving you... [She dote and worry. Even if he wasn't ill. ]
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and done?
and done!